It's Friday!

Well hello beautiful people!

Yes, yes, yes!  We've made it to Friday and for that I am grateful.  It's pay day too.....

and the rents due.... 

hahahaha, yep..... that's pretty much what Friday's are like for me now.  Well, at least the first Friday of the month.  Looking back through the years, I noticed how "Friday" changed for me.

When I was a kid, I couldn't wait until Friday!! That meant I didn't have to get up early for school the next day.  I could possibly have friends sleepover or I could go sleepover at a friends house!!!  Friday's meant Saturday morning cartoons and my mom ALWAYS cooked a bomb ass breakfast on Saturday and Sunday. Yeeeeessss! Friday was the gateway to happiness!

Then in my "early twinkling twenties" I couldn't wait for Friday to come!  That meant I didn't have to get up early for work the next day...not that it mattered because I'd party  6 days a week and still go to work the next day. Fridays meant, I could possibly have a friend sleep over or sleep over at a friends (hehehehehe...)...Friday's meant taking the kids to my parents so I can go out and PARTTTTTTAY!  Friday's meant getting wasted and not worrying about trying to pull myself together because I could literally turn myself into a hermit crab and nurse my hangover.  And during this time...when I would move back to my parents....and didn't have rent... Friday's meant I was going SHOPPING!!! Woooo whoo!

Going into my late twenties - early 30's, Fridays meant....THANK GOD I don't have to come to work tomorrow to see these people anymore.  One more day of this bullshit and I'd be catching a case and ain't nobody got time for that.  Fridays meant the beginning of a weekend getaway to relax or it meant spending a day out with the kids so I can act juvenile enough to let out my stress.  Fridays meant that after work, I'd be finding me a good hard shot of some kind of alcohol, not to get drunk, but just to even out.....to unwind.... and friends don't spend the night much anymore....

Now at my age...Fridays mean I just need to get up out of bed before 10am because I have to get to the bank and post office before they close....so I can come back home and do everything that I didn't have time to do during the week - laundry, cleaning: bathrooms, kitchen, carpets, washing my hair....Payday Friday, only means my phone will ring less because I was able to stuff a bill in somebody's mouth about the services I'm using....cable, pg & e, smud...... RENT.  hahahaha...

So yeah...., Friday's don't quite feel the same anymore.

My eyes are bleeding!!! INCEPTION!

Happy Wednesday!!

So, I wanted to share with you all a bit of a dream I had.... last night.....or this morning.... I don't know....while I was sleep.

ANYWHO......

What I can remember, I was washing makeup off of my face and I believe there was a guy with me...and I think it was somebody that I like....*thinking*....I'm fuzzy on that but while I'm trying to recall what happened, I'm getting the feeling that there was somebody there with me that I didn't want to be embarrassed and I'm feeling "love" or "affection".....that fuzzy feeling when you're around somebody you like.....yeah, that's the feeling that I'm having right now.

So, why this person is around me while I'm cleaning my face, I have no idea.  Because 1.) my hygiene maintenance is sacred private time... and 2.)  If I'm with a person that I'm crushing on....ain't NO way I'm taking off my makeup! hahahahaha  so you know this was a dream. hahahahaha!   So anyway, I'm wiping my eyes and I guess my fingernail cut the inside of my eyelid.  Blood started to pour out from my eye...and I grabbed a towel and went to find somebody to help.  

I found my dad and although I don't remember seeing her....I know my mom was there....because I could feel her.  So he looked into my eye and he said, "let's go to the hospital".  My mom (yeah, I see her now)....says, "Let me look" and when I lifted my eyelid, blood spilled out, running down my face, dripping to the carpet.  

Well, that's about as much as I remember but when I got to work today, I decided to look up the symbolic meaning of "bleeding eyes".  I'm very much into dream interpretation so I found it to be very interesting that it said this: 

Bleeding Eyes (Via Dream Moods)
To dream that your eyes are bleeding symbolizes the sacrifices your have made and the difficulties you have endured. Alternatively, the dream signifies some very deep pain or internal conflict within your soul. Although you may not feel any physical pain, you are hurting inside. Perhaps you have been hiding the pain for so long that you forgot what pain feels like. There is some unrest or uneasiness within which needs to be addressed and resolved immediately.

And on Go To Horoscope - Dream Dictionary

When you dream about eyes, the dream may be telling you that you need to literally look within yourself for an important answer to a problem you may be having, or that the answer you seek may have been right before your eyes all along. Alternatively, dreaming about one eye usually means that you are being too one sided on a particular viewpoint, and maybe you should open yourself up to new perspectives. 

If you knew me and my journey..... you would know why I'm all like "WOW" right now.  You'd know why this all makes sense to me. My life has been of many sacrifices and within the last 10 years or so, I've lost people that I just didn't think would ever go away and when they did, I didn't know how I'd make it without them.  The lost of my father and my sister, left pain so deep there were moments that I just knew I'd snap.  The internal conflict is very familiar and personal.  There's some current family situations that do have my uneasy and I guess the message from the dream is to get them resolved....and NOW! I just don't know if I should say something... or just let it go....if I do say something...how do I say it.....it's just a lot.....*sigh*

I have always been pretty intuitive.....and I get messages a lot in my dreams. I noticed this "gift" when I was about 11, or 12.  My grandmother was killed in a train crash and that was the first time I EVER really dealt with death and dying.  So one night after she had been buried... I had a dream I went to visit her.  It felt soooo real.  Now mind you, this dream was over 25 years ago....and I remember it like I just had it last week!  The message she left with me, came to be......and when it did......I just cried....because she told me....in my dream.....it would happen.

I guess this is probably why I enjoyed the movie Inception so much. I know to some of you the concept of thinking was SO far out that it got confusing....and the only thing that I didn't "accept" was them being able to get into each others dreams.  But the general premise of how dreams work....I was so into it.

So, I think I better.....pay attention to this.... and act accordingly.

Have you ever had a dream.....that came true?

Tell me why you mad, bruh?!?

*Tapping the mic*

Hello?

Is this thing on?

*feedback screeches*

Ok, good.  Thank you for joining me today.  I know it's been a few days but I've been brewing on this rant for a while and finally....let the records show:

WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK about Chris & Rihanna getting back together (allegedly, right)?

First of all, as I stated before about celebrities....these are just people, who's career (you know,  a job...like work....that verb that pays bills, put food on the table and clothes on our backs)....but they eat, sleep, shit...just like you and me.  But again, because they are "celebrities" and because obviously we have nothing better to do with our own lives but be concerned with what's going on in theirs....we keep employed stalkers, that we call "paparazzi" to hide in bushes, zip-line from tree to tree, emerge out of toilets - just to catch what's hot and happening.

Secondly, are you surprised?  I mean, really?  

There is NO reason why ANYbody should hate on Chris if Rihanna is over it.  *shrug*  I have been the witness to many, many "domestic violence" events to have learned that no matter how many interventions family and/or friends provide....they ALWAYS go back.  Always.  It may take a few beat downs before the "victim" takes all that they can take but nonetheless....they go back.  As you may have noticed, I'm not saying "she"....because men can be abused as well. Unfortunately gender stereotypes say that if a man lets a woman hit on him....he's a punk but if a man hits on a woman....she's a victim.  And by "man law".....you can't be a punk! Heavens forbid letting the "weaker" sex to be taxin' that ass....MAN UP!  So that means, no crying, no telling, no leaving....deal with it.  Sooooo, with that being said, we get men who chop up their wives.  What??? You can't expect a person to just bottle up years and years of abuse and expect them not to snap. One way or another....it'll come out.  You can't make somebody leave a bad situation...no matter how much you appeal to their intellect or reason with good sense....just like drugs and all other bad things that "take hold"...it's up to the individual to let go.  

It's been what? 3 years since their fight?  GTFOH! Folks gettin' smacked down on a daily and do we see those headlining our newspapers?? We get a month to bring light to domestic violence, help and prevention.  ABUSE happens daily!  When are they gonna start cracking down more vehemently on these "cam phone" fights that have taken over the internet?  Every single one that's uploaded, everybody involved should suffer some consequence....every last one. Don't just go after the ones that get the most hits (pardon the pun). 

Bottomline is this....leave Chris Brown alone.  He took the punishment handed to him for his involvement....he won a Grammy and all is fair in the world.  

If you disagree with and have put your foot down about Chris Brown....don't listen to his music, don't watch him on tv, don't go getting all in a tizzy about his daily activity because people still enjoy his talents and he's just trying to make a living at it.  But the more you rant about how much of a monster he is....the paparazzi's gonna keep feeding you his business....keeping him in the news....keeping him relevant. Duh?!
Why y'all not mad at Ri Ri??  Y'all came to her rescue and she's the one that went back! hahahaha....Look how happy she is.....got her boo back! hahahahaha....

I like Chris Brown...and I enjoy his music. ALOT.  But I don't see what made him and Rihanna any different than other celebrities that were reported to have been in physical altercations with their significant others.  *shrug*  

I don't think any man should ever have to hit a woman....we are just built that men are (well, generally) physically stronger than women.  So, a dude could restrain a female, without serving a two piece.  HOWEVER.....women need to understand...."do unto others as you would have things done unto you"! 

So for anybody, that may be in a domestic violence situation or knows someone who is....GET HELP! (link to resources...click it!)

1. One in four women (25%) has experienced domestic violence in her lifetime.
2. Roughly 300,000 to 400,000 men are treated violently by their wife or girl friend.

Oh!  Chris and Ri-Ri wanted you guys to know what they think about what you all have to say

And......you can quote me if you like!